Penelope Cruz’s Inner "Monster" Ruins Her Romance

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The 34-year-old actress, who’s currently dating fellow Spaniard Javier Bardem, says she has always fought to keep the disruptive fiend from spoiling the most “beautiful moments” of her life.

She says to W Magazine, "I'm always finding very tricky and hidden ways to sabotage any beautiful moment. And it's something so internal that I don't think even my friends or family can catch me doing it.

"But I catch myself doing it. I've had that battle since I was a little girl. It's like, 'Uh-oh, here it is again, the monster! Go away and leave me alone!' "

She adds that she thinks the Internet is a “dangerous and nasty” place that’s why she never looks herself up on the web.

She declares, "I try not to go on the internet and read about myself. It's a guaranteed way to get angry for no reason. You start looking at yourself from the outside, from the wrong place. And everything is out of proportion.

“The good things, the bad things - everything. I think it's disgusting. It's dangerous and nasty."